28.5.13

You're supposed to marry the best friend, right?

i wanna fall in love like the movies, drifting away in the words that have held no one but me in my sleep and are what keep me from a grueling reality, that not only are those movies already done without me but there isnt a director to lead me to the perfect actor to play my loved one.
i think you have been casted this time and im the main character
that love so cliche is right around the corner and you know you love it.
you know you want it
we are edgy, funny, not original yet right
the moment between lost and found
we are first glance love, finding each other at airports before we go our seperate ways, touching hands after bumping into eachother, best friend's hook up gone right, deep connection at record store, bad encounter seen later, we are best friends who dwell in eachother every day and never realized till the last minute, too late
so why don't you love me?
i remember the times that you have picked up my spine, and been the ligaments when all else has failed, that 4am isn't too late it's always just in time because thats when we need each other most
when the crickets have left us, the moon is thinking of escaping, and the quiet on the town reassures me that we're not safe but okay.
in the movies they always choose the best friend at the end and i hope im at the end of this flick
that this one doesnt end in the tears from what they were hoping for, what she wanted, what he couldnt have, what he should've had, and with me wondering if im watching the movie or if i'm in the movie.is the movie about me or .....or am i just watching pictures and creating a thousand words that arent there?
Don't mind me though, im just rambling and you're going to put me back on the shelf when you think you have found your best friend not knowing that my words are the very conversations we shared, the conversations we hid, the things you yourself said,and the very conversations that mean nothing between best friends.