13.4.13

The part I was assigned


I am your main character

I’m the one who goes through heartbreak, loss, and addiction

Struggling with themselves to find themselves,

The one who carries you through your books with all of my strength even though each word is another load on my heart

I am your main character

The same one who finds strengths in friends and can’t do it alone, dragging along people who I think care about me the most

The one who hides their feelings about what’s actually going on just to give you a speech in the end about keep on keepin' on

However I’ll never be your favorite

I’ll never be the one who you adore

Since there’s always "that" main character

The one who goes through hardships but has to make it till the end while others are expendable

While death is all around them, they manage to move on

No matter how many times I find a new light, a new ending, a new way for the story to go on

I will never be your favorite

My druggy mother, my stubborn sister, my fierce enemy, my distant boyfriend, my creepy Jewish neighbor, my angry best friend, and my kind psychotic brother are your favorite.

Not

Me

I will find a new me in the end, and you will love what I’ve become but adore the people i’m not.

Why are they your favorite when I’ve gone through all this for you?

When I’ve illustrated this for you?

Ill create another book for you to sit by the fire, the porch, the boring classroom to enjoy

Just remember I’m here to entertain you even though I’ll never be your favorite

But we move on and understand

Because we're your main characters.