What am i suppose to tell you.

Honestly
i don't know this amazing message I'm supposed to be giving you
as i stand up here right now i realize that
i spent all m hours and minutes on may 5th to find myself coming to a new realization with each new video i watched about spoken word
i said, "i want to do that"
and that's as far as i got
i wanted to pull words out of nowhere that were ever so...beautiful  i guess
i wanted to be so sure in my words and finally give you the colors that are within my heart like a teacher to a kindergartner
i wanted to show you in invisible waves how the world is so round yet edgy
and i wanted to explain to you the time i got my heart crushed by not my boyfriend
and how i have to refrain someday from soaking up everyone's tears as i found out some of it is just water
or how every weekend i spend talking to 3 guys about their relationship problems and how to solve them even though in school i don't exist to them
i wanted to prove to you that society still has a heart
to show that we are all not the same
that fighting isn't entertainment anymore
that we've grown and are now dying too in other areas of our great farm land of america
let's just say id like to to think of myself as a Fertilizer
yeah i stink, i stink at a lot of things and i come out of uncleanly places however i help the world grow too
i wanted to get up here and say. "this is who is going to inspire the change you wish to be in the world"
i wanted you to say "wow" after i spoke
i wanted you to be discouraged after i got up and told my story about the stuff you usually wouldn't tell people like, "i sleep with the a teddy bear because i'm afraid ill never get married and at least something cute and cuddly will love me in the morning" stuff like that
i was going to turn your world upside down, and stop it from spinning
so you can quit being dizzy about what's right and what's wrong
where gray areas soon become images of clear paths
i wanted to stop the rain
so we would never have to grow again
as we have reached our full potential
i am going to try to show you just that
and be that
just promise me, you will listen and be here when the time comes to give you my lesson?