why did i feel so vulnerable all of the sudden?
i was sitting there in the midst of my room feeling as if i was surrounded by assassin's with no form of defense in me, or as if id been embarassed in public and there was no bathroom to escape ,to hide.
i just wanted to be flushed away, so stocked up on all of this ,suddenly reeling in my mind. next time ill remember not to go into my past for inspiration. i sat there remembering how much i was alone inside and the feeling bruised me again in my chest. Looking back there....i wont do that anymore but today i had.
