I just dont do it like she does.

I wanted to touch people too
I wanted to slide into the grooves of that smile and dig out the gook in the wedges of your teeth
Make you swallow the bitter tastings of what you have already digested as the worst things in life
Remind you of what’s missing, get those taste buds to retell you of the grueling, molding, mushy things that use to keep you moving and now are what poison you behind that smile.
I wanted to tell you how you felt
Whenever that moment swept over you and you and your emotions got taken away with the dust bunnies and brushed away to the recycling bin

I wanted to make you feel that
to be the one who grabbed your attention kissing your face so hard, with that rushing feeling in the hands of my words, and you will still bite your lips tasting the saliva of each letter as it soothes you and imprints on your mind
I was going to sway your body in in that rocking motion of boats that set sail to new ideas, my sound waves to rock you into your destination in life. that maybe the reason a land of milk & honey only stuck with you because of the words i could not swallow anymore, the words that i thought up day and night, the words that i bathed in from time to time....

i wanted to do what she does.