Justified Lovers

look as a friend and not your lover,
you need to know she's not the one
not the one for you at least
if everything is as perfect as you think it is
then why does she cheat
why does she have to guilt you into saying yes again
you should feel it
you should feel the yes in everything you do
every word you've every spoken to her should feel like yes, should taste like yes, and even when times are hard each ache and pain still drips yes and screams yes, stay with me, forever.
Every time you talk to me i shouldnt hear wants, and why
and have to decipher the many letters, that alphabetize your memories, and different versions of you
i want it all not just crumbs of the beauty i feel in your chest, leftovers from the people who devoured your sense of humanity, and trust. I'll even take the bitter,battered,beaten names that people have thrown at you and the dyeing colors of your gray sadness that leaks with each shuffle of your feet.
but see, she didn't see that.
she told me that you were a great guy, and she appreciates you by buying you things
her exact words
if you can buy into that bullshit, that love consists of how many pennies you find under your bed, and that each meeting of lips should slip a payment of goodbehavoir, and
becuase like any store bought item, as soon as you break of your uses, she will buy what she thinks is a  better toy,
but you are not to played with or even treasured because you're not a thing, or a toy
you're the one boy
who kissed me before you knew my name and it was okay